I am a bad blogger. Its not that I don’t have anything to
say … I have a lot to say. I just can’t seem to get around to organizing it
into any kind of coherent, readable piece. My kids have been on summer vacation
for almost a month and it feels like it has been about 5000 years … and not in
a good way.
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I love summer … or more accurately, I love the idea I have
in my head of what summer should be like. The kids have long, warm days to play
outside and explore the neighborhood with their friends, the ocean is 20
minutes away, a nice lake is even closer, and they all enthusiastically signed
up for the summer reading program at the library. My brain is bursting with
projects I want to do around the house, cool crafty things I want to sell on
Etsy, art projects I want to do with the kids, and steps I need to take to get
more real (as in paying) work. Sounds like a great summer, right? Fun and
relaxing and creative and productive all at once! YAY! You know what is really
happening? N O T H I N G.
Ok, not nothing, and herein lies my problem. I never seem to
think of the stuff I do around the house (cooking, housework, laundry) or the
stuff I do with my kids (going to the beach, library, on hikes, etc.) as real stuff. I think of these activities
as the things that keep me from doing the real
stuff. What do I think I should be doing instead? Why do I feel like sitting
on a beach all day is a huge waste of time? Does not having a “job” make me
feel like all the time spent on other stuff that takes up my day would be
better spent doing something else? I don’t know. I certainly don’t wish I was
stuck in an office all day. I know that whatever projects I finish will be
replaced by new ones. I am never without creative inspiration … just the
motivation and self discipline to devote the time to these projects I feel they
deserve. I don’t know why I end every day feeling like I did nothing
worthwhile.
So what I have been
doing?
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We’ve been going to the beach a lot. I know that
isn’t a tragedy or anything, but it gets boring after a while.
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Took the kids into Boston to see the tall ships
during HarborFest.
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Watched parades and fireworks with friends.
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I watched the 1st season of HBO’s Girls in two days. Brilliant show. Lena
Dunham is wiser and braver at 25 than I will ever be. Awesome. Watch it. You
won’t be sorry.
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I have had a little more freelance work,
including designing T-shirts for an animal shelter and a logo based on African
beetles.
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I got poison ivy for the second summer in a row.
Yay.
I have not:
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Gone through all the papers and folders the kids
brought home from school.
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Gone to yoga class. (I think I went once since
school ended)
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Cleaned out our home office so it can be used
for a sewing/craft studio
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Figured out what to pack for the trip we are
taking later this month.
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Finished sewing (or really started sewing) the iPad cases I plan to sell on Etsy.
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Updated my online portfolio
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Tried to find more freelance work.
One of these days I will get it together. Probably not
today.
