Just to be clear—I am the one having the meltdowns, not the
kids. Somehow, my lack of time management, lack of organization, and lack of
planning seem to always converge with my lack of patience and the lack of
school into the Vacation Week Perfect Storm.
Once again, I feel like the day had gotten away from me and I haven’t accomplished much of anything. I don’t mean I have had a
lovely, relaxing day and have not accomplished much of anything, but that I
have tried and failed to do a lot of things. Ugh. By this time of day I start
thinking about what I want to accomplish tomorrow and I somehow forget that I
thought the same thing at this time yesterday.
I feel like my kids are old enough that their presence
should not derail everything I want to do in a day, and honestly I don’t know
if they are the problem or I am. Somehow it all turns into fighting and
bickering (kids) and tears and frustration (me.) They are never fighting over
anything meaningful, just whose turn it is to pick up dog poop, or who is going
to sit where on the couch, or what they want to eat, but to me it is just
nonstop squabbling and it drives me up the wall.
Again (really — why don’t I learn) I don’t feel like I
should have to schedule and plan activities for the entire school vacation
week. If I do, they complain that they just want to play at home with their
friends from the neighborhood. I can’t win.
Tomorrow is another day and tomorrow I will try again.
Hopefully I can get something done. Hopefully the squabbling will be minimal
and I won’t have to break up any fights. Hopefully, I can get myself to a yoga
class. Hopefully I don’t drown my sorrows in the leftover Easter candy.
Hopefully I can write about what a productive and happy day I had and that my 30-day
plan is working. Hopefully.
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